So it’s been a couple of weeks since my whine about doing New Year’s Resolution now and about my bday and all that jazz. I have to say that the recommitment to WW has been a bust. What generally happens keeps happening. Even when I stay within my points (or even if I go over–the weeks that I gain weight for going over are not always consistent so that some weeks I go over my points and still lose weight), I do this weird balancing act. I’ll lose 2.5 pounds one week. Change nothing. Eat basically the same thing and then gain it back. I don’t know what the deal is. But it’s why I keep leaving WW. So the last three weeks have been intensely frustrating. I can’t find a way to be consistent. And we’re getting into dangerous territory here where I start to weigh myself every day and the numbers on the scale dictate my mood for the day. And that shit just isn’t cool. And I need to watch it during the holidays, so I’m at a loss here. I don’t know if following a meal plan or something would work better because then what happens when I encounter things not on the meal plan? I’m too stressed thinking about it. I’m extremely frustrated here, too. I mean, I actually sort of like the WW, but the new point change (again) is starting to piss me off, obviously, and it’s not really working for me for whatever reason. I’m really having a hard time, even going over on the amount of points I did (Xmas party) figuring out that with running 32 miles last week and going over a handful of points that between Friday and Sunday I consumed enough extra calories to equal three pounds! So I don’t know what’s going on here. Maybe since I had cut out some foods for a few weeks and then had those foods this weekend is evidence of an intolerance/allergy if it’s causing bloat and weight gain? Sigh. I perhaps may need to experiment with some more dietary changes. I have another cookbook coming. I think it has more to do with some of the processed foods I had this weekend that I’ve really been focused on not having the last couple of weeks that might be doing it to me. Sigh. What a PITA!
I’m not really actually trying to whine here. I am a little jealous that what, all of you are done for the year with breaks much longer than mine. I am missing that five week break I used to have right about now; however, I also like that I don’t have to travel 22 hours to see family this year, and that even though we’re flat ass busted broke we’re not in the dire straights we would be if we were still in Fancy Town, so I’ll give up three weeks of paid vacation just for that. Today I’m pretty sure, since it’s the day before break, that my 8 am class is going to be half empty. I intend on phoning it in but without appearing to and giving them the Christmas gift of letting them out a bit early. And not for them. I want to go home, too. That’s the only advantage that I can see for having that 8 am class today is that I should be home by 10 am at the latest. I can most certainly live with that right there. Although I find it ridiculous that we even had class these two days this week. Oh well. But it’s been a good first quarter and a half here in Big LIttle Town. And I guess on that note, I should go get ready for class.